The Beginning o' the Beginning

New beginnings're double-edged swords of excitement 'n' fear. New beginnings're tug-o'-wars between boundless energy 'n' paralyzing trepidation. New beginnings're minefields o' dreams 'n' paranoias. New beginnings're complete journeys in their own rights. New beginnings're...

Well, I could go on in this vein fer quite a bit longer, but I think I've made my point by now: my point being that new beginnings're full o' contradictions 'n' contrariness. On the one hand, you got all this energy 'n' excitement 'bout your new undertaking 'n' all the hopes 'n' dreams 'bout what could happen 'n' where all it could lead. On t'other hand, you got all these fears 'bout whether er not it will all end in failure, er whether folks will notice, er whether it will all end in utter failure, er even the fear that it will all succeed beyond your wildest dreams 'n' how, er even if, you'll be able to deal with that.

There is another thing 'bout new beginnings, though. New beginnings're always the victory of excitement 'n' energy 'n' dreams over fear 'n' trepidation 'n' paranoia. They have to be. Think 'bout it fer a minute. If it was t'other way 'round, with the fear 'n' all winning out over the other stuff, there would be no beginning. So, in a way, all beginnings're small victories, no matter what the final outcome is.

So this is my small victory over fear 'n' what not. This is me setting my foot on a new path. This is me dipping my toe into the pond. This is me shooting my arrow into the air 'n' watching to see where it eventually falls. This is my shot in the dark. This is my ... all that other stuff like that. This is the beginning o' my attempt to eat an apple a day fer at least a full year 'n' seeing if it really will keep the doctor away.

(In actual point o' fact, though, this is just the beginning o' that beginning. I won't get to the beginning o' the actual apple eating fer a few more days yet. This is just a sort o' introduction to lay down the ground rules 'n' let folks know just what's in store fer 'em if they decide to follow this thing to whatever end it reaches.)